Somewhere in between

Putih.
Macam mana wajah blog aku macam tu lah rasa kosong bila aku jengah blog sendiri.

Kadang-kadang aku fikir jugak apa rasional aku buat blog ni.
Kalau nak kata aku blogger yang hebat memang jauh sekali sebab kata-kata mahupun ayat aku tak lah hebat sangat, dan tidak lah teruk sangat rasanya.
Sekadar benda kosong apa yang aku rasa, yang boleh aku luah kat sini.
Tapi banyak macam aku membebel pasal aku, hidup aku, apa aku rasa.
(Dah ni blog kau lah Amalina, suka hati kau la) *monolog dalaman.

Kira benda ni macam diari lah.
Tapi bukan personal.
Most of what really happening towards me, I don't share.

So, balik kepada tajuk asal. title post kali ni. Somewhere in between. One week to go, pastu sambung belajar balik dah. In the midst of fear, insanity, anxious and elation which I couldn't sum up into one perfect word so this is it what I've been feeling for. If only I knew what I know today. God, life's hard.

A time comes when you realize that principles such as integrity is not the outdated idea but the foundation to build a life. Honesty, and in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You can't really blame the people you're counting on  if they're not there when you needed help. You start to learn that sometimes, unexpected people are the those who can help you put through. Deal with fear itself, deal with ego and understand the resentment or it will suffocate the life out of you. 

Benda-benda yang berlaku di sekeliling, harap dapat membuka mata dan minda dengan lebih luas. Degree pun dah nak start, mungkin akan jarang update blog lepas ni.

Salam.
Amalina.Nazri,

Random

Degree. Ijazah pertama sepenuh masa undang-undang dengan kepujian. Alhamdulillah untuk itu. Dalam beberapa minggu ni, timeline twitter aku penuh dengan diskusi pasal degree dan rumah sewa. Berulang kali jugak aku baca surat tawaran tu. Kolej kediaman TIDAK disediakan. apakah ini? Aku rasa kalau aku datang dari negeri lain pun aku akan cuak terlebih nak cari rumah sewa untuk permulaan sem. Gila. Belum lagi start belajar, macam-macam benda aku dah rasa susah. Dan semakin tinggi kau belajar, semakin banyak dugaan hidup. Aku doa agar aku lalui semuanya dengan baik, dan untuk kau.

The older you get, the more serious you will be. I can't decide whether it's a brilliant or a sign of aging? Haha guess both. I had happy fancies of being everything I want, once, when I was a kid but now is a reality to face. But why only in the world of dream I can dream of impossible things happens ey? Nama pun mimpi. Alright, I got it. Time to widen the horizon and everything I do has got to be related to my conscience. Good intention, come success. Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation leans on the doorbell. But the coolest thing about life, we don't know what comes next regardless in any situation.

"Buku merah jangan lupa bawa, moga-moga belum tamat tempoh. Kali ini kita pergi lebih lama, pergi lebih jauh" Sila dengar. Click here for the song. 

Salam. 

Amalina.Nazri,