Putih.
Macam mana wajah blog aku macam tu lah rasa kosong bila aku jengah blog sendiri.
Kadang-kadang aku fikir jugak apa rasional aku buat blog ni.
Kalau nak kata aku blogger yang hebat memang jauh sekali sebab kata-kata mahupun ayat aku tak lah hebat sangat, dan tidak lah teruk sangat rasanya.
Sekadar benda kosong apa yang aku rasa, yang boleh aku luah kat sini.
Tapi banyak macam aku membebel pasal aku, hidup aku, apa aku rasa.
(Dah ni blog kau lah Amalina, suka hati kau la) *monolog dalaman.
Kira benda ni macam diari lah.
Tapi bukan personal.
Most of what really happening towards me, I don't share.
So, balik kepada tajuk asal. title post kali ni. Somewhere in between. One week to go, pastu sambung belajar balik dah. In the midst of fear, insanity, anxious and elation which I couldn't sum up into one perfect word so this is it what I've been feeling for. If only I knew what I know today. God, life's hard.
A time comes when you realize that principles such as integrity is not the outdated idea but the foundation to build a life. Honesty, and in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You can't really blame the people you're counting on if they're not there when you needed help. You start to learn that sometimes, unexpected people are the those who can help you put through. Deal with fear itself, deal with ego and understand the resentment or it will suffocate the life out of you.
Benda-benda yang berlaku di sekeliling, harap dapat membuka mata dan minda dengan lebih luas. Degree pun dah nak start, mungkin akan jarang update blog lepas ni.
Salam.
Amalina.Nazri,
February 25, 2012
February 13, 2012
Random
Degree. Ijazah pertama sepenuh masa undang-undang dengan kepujian. Alhamdulillah untuk itu. Dalam beberapa minggu ni, timeline twitter aku penuh dengan diskusi pasal degree dan rumah sewa. Berulang kali jugak aku baca surat tawaran tu. Kolej kediaman TIDAK disediakan. apakah ini? Aku rasa kalau aku datang dari negeri lain pun aku akan cuak terlebih nak cari rumah sewa untuk permulaan sem. Gila. Belum lagi start belajar, macam-macam benda aku dah rasa susah. Dan semakin tinggi kau belajar, semakin banyak dugaan hidup. Aku doa agar aku lalui semuanya dengan baik, dan untuk kau.
The older you get, the more serious you will be. I can't decide whether it's a brilliant or a sign of aging? Haha guess both. I had happy fancies of being everything I want, once, when I was a kid but now is a reality to face. But why only in the world of dream I can dream of impossible things happens ey? Nama pun mimpi. Alright, I got it. Time to widen the horizon and everything I do has got to be related to my conscience. Good intention, come success. Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation leans on the doorbell. But the coolest thing about life, we don't know what comes next regardless in any situation.
"Buku merah jangan lupa bawa, moga-moga belum tamat tempoh. Kali ini kita pergi lebih lama, pergi lebih jauh" Sila dengar. Click here for the song.
Salam.
Amalina.Nazri,
January 29, 2012
Clearance, done.
Kalau macam ini lama-lama, otak gua boleh jadi beku.
Too much holidays ain't good for your brain, seriously.
Kalau dah tengah belajar nak pulak cuti, bila dah cuti lama tak sabar pulak nak belajar balik. ironi di situ.
Sekarang ni baru boleh cakap "gua dah buat clearance, lu orang bila lagi?" haha. Done with clearance, stayed one night at El-Zahrah hotel with Azza, Natra and Fatihah. Notes on the new experience ; I can take care of myself now and being independent handling things on my own. Good outcome. DUDE, I AM FREAKING 20!
Best gila la dengan dorang ni pergi balik Merbok buat clearance, laugh our lungs out all the way even the smallest thing pun boleh jadi jokes. From pillow talk that lastly turn into camwhore moment. Plus, that morning when I woke up next to ze girls, the exuberant joy I feel is one of the precious moment and I still can't believe it that we managed to crammed the four of us on the same bed. It was queen bed to be precise. Haha insane. Reminiscing the time I used to had there feel so surreal but life is moving forward, isn't it? Typical me, ineffable mixed thoughts, always have. We take a walk around, play arcade games, eat, eat, and eat. haha! It was fun. Dan, terima kasih banyak-banyak kepada Agas sebab sudi tumpangkan kami, kebetulan dia pun buat clearance. Alhamdulillah for everything.
Satu benda lawak yang yang berlaku apabila aku berseloroh dengan Azza. "Za, kau jangan nak pandang aku serong sangat lah kan" dengan blur nya dia jawab "hah? bila masa aku juling?" Pause di situ. Juling dengan serong bukan dua cara pandangan yang berbeza ke? The rest of us laugh hard burst with emotions. haha! Azza, azza, aku harap kau dapat control ke-nervous-an kau. haha. Love you guys anyway!
p/s ; tapi ktm band tak cukup dua orang lah. :/
Amalina.Nazri,
Too much holidays ain't good for your brain, seriously.
Kalau dah tengah belajar nak pulak cuti, bila dah cuti lama tak sabar pulak nak belajar balik. ironi di situ.
Uitm Merbok, tasik tempat famous kat sana.
Sekarang ni baru boleh cakap "gua dah buat clearance, lu orang bila lagi?" haha. Done with clearance, stayed one night at El-Zahrah hotel with Azza, Natra and Fatihah. Notes on the new experience ; I can take care of myself now and being independent handling things on my own. Good outcome. DUDE, I AM FREAKING 20!
Best gila la dengan dorang ni pergi balik Merbok buat clearance, laugh our lungs out all the way even the smallest thing pun boleh jadi jokes. From pillow talk that lastly turn into camwhore moment. Plus, that morning when I woke up next to ze girls, the exuberant joy I feel is one of the precious moment and I still can't believe it that we managed to crammed the four of us on the same bed. It was queen bed to be precise. Haha insane. Reminiscing the time I used to had there feel so surreal but life is moving forward, isn't it? Typical me, ineffable mixed thoughts, always have. We take a walk around, play arcade games, eat, eat, and eat. haha! It was fun. Dan, terima kasih banyak-banyak kepada Agas sebab sudi tumpangkan kami, kebetulan dia pun buat clearance. Alhamdulillah for everything.
Satu benda lawak yang yang berlaku apabila aku berseloroh dengan Azza. "Za, kau jangan nak pandang aku serong sangat lah kan" dengan blur nya dia jawab "hah? bila masa aku juling?" Pause di situ. Juling dengan serong bukan dua cara pandangan yang berbeza ke? The rest of us laugh hard burst with emotions. haha! Azza, azza, aku harap kau dapat control ke-nervous-an kau. haha. Love you guys anyway!
p/s ; tapi ktm band tak cukup dua orang lah. :/
Amalina.Nazri,
January 12, 2012
Empat
12 Jan ; The date I've been waiting for, but in the same time I don't feel almost anything exactly. What are you kidding me this is the third time I've been dealing with Muet. Of course I have reduce the nervousness. Yes people, third time I had taken Muet and praise to Allah only this time it's worth every sweat of my hard work and whatever I've through. I just want to see that number. 4. And that would be enough for me.
Earlier that night when some of my pals were busy updating their tweets about Muet I have no idea why I've been so calm, least interested to update anything about Muet as usually I would tweet almost about anything on twitter. But then I stopped tweeting upon unnecessary things, not long ago. No problem at all, I just thought that some things are better left untweet, keep it to myself. In accordance, I believe if you are one of my followers, you would have noticed that I rarely floods your timeline anymore.
A lot of things running through my mind. Did I pass this time? or didn't I? I was in close but no cigar, at that moment being. Mentally and emotionally I was ready cause I prepare for the best and expect the worst. Like always. Tepat jam 12, my curiosity killed the cat and I grab my phone started to compose a new massage, and guess what? Funny thing happened. I received a text from Maxis first asking me to top up. Hahaa I don't have sufficient credit to make calls or send sms-es and I laugh myself off that time. Punya lah gua dah taip sume sekali check baki akuan, kosong sen da. haha. So without further due, I put myself to sleep. Dalam perjalanan gua nak naik ke bulan, 30 minutes later approximately, I received another text but I didn't open it thinking it would be just another random text from Maxis. Ya, hanya maxis je yang setia bagi mesej kat gua tiap masa. Then I received another. Yes, again. Couldn't stand the annoying sound of the text alert I reluctantly read the text with one eye open.
Baam! I was wrong, it was not from Maxis this time but from Along Ucop, congratulate me and he send the copy of my Muet result. Meaning that he checked the result for me without my consent. I paused. First, alhamdulillah I got band 4. Second, how do along ucop knows my identification number? I smell something fishy there but screw all these doubts, this ain't a cook and bull story bro. I scream and happy. Alhamdulillah. I nailed it this time. I couldn't stop thanking god. True what they say, once a girl, will always be a girl right. As expected, I cried. No matter how many times I remembered myself that I shall not get too emotional, but I failed. The feeling of getting what you always wanted after all this while finally came, aaah blessed.
On top of everything, main point is to make my parents proud of me and I sort of did. Alhamdulillah. Allah is fully aware, keep your faith. What's important is the energy you create for yourself. Positive thinking :)
I want to congratulate semua rakan-rakan yang mengambil muet, tahniah semua. We've done our best, the enthusiasm yang penting.
p/s ; Masih mencari-cari rahsia along ucop macam mana jadi hackers terhebat ni? Bahaya. haha.
Amalina.Nazri,
Earlier that night when some of my pals were busy updating their tweets about Muet I have no idea why I've been so calm, least interested to update anything about Muet as usually I would tweet almost about anything on twitter. But then I stopped tweeting upon unnecessary things, not long ago. No problem at all, I just thought that some things are better left untweet, keep it to myself. In accordance, I believe if you are one of my followers, you would have noticed that I rarely floods your timeline anymore.
A lot of things running through my mind. Did I pass this time? or didn't I? I was in close but no cigar, at that moment being. Mentally and emotionally I was ready cause I prepare for the best and expect the worst. Like always. Tepat jam 12, my curiosity killed the cat and I grab my phone started to compose a new massage, and guess what? Funny thing happened. I received a text from Maxis first asking me to top up. Hahaa I don't have sufficient credit to make calls or send sms-es and I laugh myself off that time. Punya lah gua dah taip sume sekali check baki akuan, kosong sen da. haha. So without further due, I put myself to sleep. Dalam perjalanan gua nak naik ke bulan, 30 minutes later approximately, I received another text but I didn't open it thinking it would be just another random text from Maxis. Ya, hanya maxis je yang setia bagi mesej kat gua tiap masa. Then I received another. Yes, again. Couldn't stand the annoying sound of the text alert I reluctantly read the text with one eye open.
Baam! I was wrong, it was not from Maxis this time but from Along Ucop, congratulate me and he send the copy of my Muet result. Meaning that he checked the result for me without my consent. I paused. First, alhamdulillah I got band 4. Second, how do along ucop knows my identification number? I smell something fishy there but screw all these doubts, this ain't a cook and bull story bro. I scream and happy. Alhamdulillah. I nailed it this time. I couldn't stop thanking god. True what they say, once a girl, will always be a girl right. As expected, I cried. No matter how many times I remembered myself that I shall not get too emotional, but I failed. The feeling of getting what you always wanted after all this while finally came, aaah blessed.
On top of everything, main point is to make my parents proud of me and I sort of did. Alhamdulillah. Allah is fully aware, keep your faith. What's important is the energy you create for yourself. Positive thinking :)
I want to congratulate semua rakan-rakan yang mengambil muet, tahniah semua. We've done our best, the enthusiasm yang penting.
p/s ; Masih mencari-cari rahsia along ucop macam mana jadi hackers terhebat ni? Bahaya. haha.
Amalina.Nazri,
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